I feel that I have accessed the risks involved and as such have taken precautions to ensure that if I was badly injured or killed my family would at least be reasonably finicially secure.
I think also that one acesses that risk even during a race if I make a mistake of judgemnet I always know I've got a bit of road to play with but others those who are much faster than me must by virtue of being faster leave themselves with less room for errors.

I've seen close up what the concquences of a crash on the TT course can result in and I KNOW what could happen.

I think the point I trying to make is that I refuse to see out my days in a semi drunnken smoke filled haze and die a slow horrible death in some poxy nursing home which seems to be the ambition of tens of thousands of people in this world.

Life is for living and you don't get a second shot at it. Make the most if it.