Hellen, I always remember what my old Jewish dentist told me when I was a kid in Melbourne. He asked me if I had a girlfriend and I said, no. He said, Yes you have, it is your Mother and she is the best friend you will ever have. You can have any number of wives but you can only have one Mother. My Mum died 23 years ago and I still miss her.How weak is our language and how weak are our words at a time like this. Just remember you are not alone, everyone out here on the net feels for you.